I only have two resolutions this year.
1) To be kind to myself physically. This means that I will do my best to refrain from thinking of or speaking about myself as an ugly person. I will eat food that is good for me, and eat food that tastes good. I will exercise to feel and be healthy, and I will not think of it as failure if I don’t stick to a regimented schedule. My body is not up for public discussion or opinion. It is mine. I will do my best to love it, no matter its shape or size, and appreciate things about it instead of wishing I could change everything.
2) To be kind to myself mentally. I will take care of myself by talking to people I trust, by taking time that is only for myself, by continuing to see my therapist as often as I can afford, by letting people help me, by not being ashamed when my depression appears (as it is bound to). When I slip, I will help myself up instead of beating myself back down. When I need it, I will ask for someone to listen to me instead of forcing myself to only be the one who listens. I will show myself a little more love and a little less critical malice.
I don’t know what 2013 holds for me. I hope that it is infinitely better than 2012. Whatever comes, I will treat myself with compassion, learn from my mistakes, ask for and give forgiveness freely, be kind and generous to people, and keep working hard to become whole.